The Gatekeeper...

gem_samari @ 2007-12-04T13:53:00

2007-12-04T18:53:47Z

So I'm now in the editing stage of my final paper. Like, the final one. The one that is worth 25% of my final grade. And it's a super long research paper. ;__; I'm gonna diiiiieeee. Actually, when I took in the first draft today my professor seemed to like it, but he said I needed more specific evidence. I have a lot of personal experience stuff in there, but I need more actual scientific facts.

They're just so hard to FIND is the problem. I've looked EVERYWHERE for this one little thing I need to know, and no luck. See, my paper in on antidepressants, and I need a percentage of people who are depressed, how many of those people take antidepressants and how many go with other options, and how many of the people who go with other options succeed in conquering their depression. But I can't FIND it. ;____; Woe.

...Ugh. I'm going to go play Kingdom Hearts now and try to get out some of my frustration. ¬_¬

SCHOOL IS EATING ME ALIVE

2007-11-27T18:04:09Z

(Yes, I know, I've been MIA for a long time. My computer got a virus and life was being bitchy.)

Argh.

I got a B+ on my third English paper of the semester today.

NOOOOOOOOOO. THAT MAKES TWO B+s AND ONLY ONE A! I AM NOT A B+ STUDENT!

I think it's because I've had so much trouble managing my time lately. If I had been able to give it more thought and work on it over several days I would not have had a problem. Luckily, my English professor is the BEST professor in the world, and is letting each student rewrite one paper. So, since our next (and last) paper is supposed to build on this one anyway, I've decided to rewrite this one. That way, as an added bonus when I go to write my next paper (THIS WEEKEND! AAH!), I won't have to do as much editing.

So yeah. AND I still have to do something for Japanese to make up for when I was in Hawaii. I think I'm going to go with what my professor and I talked about, which is basically a powerpoint slideshow talking about the things I saw. But in order to DO that, I need 1) the digital camera so I can get all of our photos onto my computer, and 2) some kind of program that'll let me type in Japanese (NO IDEA where I'm going to get that).

*whimper* Help meeee!

Just FYI

2007-11-01T03:46:44Z

I'm going to be more MIA than usual for the next week, as I'm going to Hawaii with my family. I'll be back next Thursday. Byeeesss <3

is tired

2007-10-18T08:08:32Z

I've pulled an all-nighter to study for midterms tomorrow.

Stupid college.

I'm kind of proud, though, to tell the truth. I've managed to pull the ghastly first draft of my midterm English paper into something fairly decent, and was able to study for four hours without getting distracted to prepare for my Japanese midterm.

And now I am tired.

...I suppose I'll just wait five hours, then go to English, then take a nap after that, and hopefully not be too tired for Japanese...

...I really wish I knew how to make coffee...

...But my mom always does it...

...That's rather pathetic...

...Oh well...

Life...

2007-09-26T23:40:17Z

I think I kinda get it now. Sorta. Some of it. Things are starting to make sense. I've been right about some things and wrong about others, but everything is coming together now. I feel like I really know who I am to a much higher degree than before.

...I'll stop the introspective babble now. xD

ZOMG. It's the attack of the killer tomatoes.

2007-09-21T02:35:48Z

Lots of stuff to get through today. Let's start with...

1. HAWAII. ZOMG. I absolutely cannot wait. asdkfsjlkjfdklsjasf;

2. Cell phone guy didn't come to Japanese today! :D It's the first class he's missed, so I'm ~~hoping against hope~~ thinking maybe he dropped the class.

3. NARUTO 371 SPOILERS OMG. OOOOOOMG. *brain overloaded with awesome*

4. My Japanese professor gave us so. much. homework. T_T This is far more than she's ever given us before. We have to read a bunch of pages and do a bunch of work sheets, plus download two programs online, find a few Japanese songs and upload them to the website (no problem for me since I've got a huge library of Japanese songs), memorize an entire conversation and replace the character's facts (name, gender, nationality, school, etc.) with our own before presenting it in class, and watch at least one Japanese movie (or movie with some Japanese in it) and try to pick up at least a few phrases. And no anime.

Yes, you read that right. NO. ANIME.

...

T_T Why, sensei? Why?

!

2007-09-18T04:30:03Z

GAAAAAAHHHH ENGLISH IS TOMORROW AND I HAVEN'T PACKED MY BACKPACK SINCE I UNPACKED IN ON SUNDAY! *rushes around throwing things into backpack*

O_O

2007-09-18T04:17:56Z

Well, I had... an EVENTFUL day -_-.

So my internet goes out. It's around eight thirty at night, I suppose. And guess what?

I HAVE TO FINISH MY PHYSICAL SCIENCE CLASS BY MIDNIGHT THAT NIGHT OR I FAIL.

Did I mention it's online? Yeah.

So I call up my friend leon_ares. The beginning of the phone conversation went something like this: "Hi. Do you have wireless internet?"

The remainder of the conversation was mainly as follows: "OMG CAN I PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE COME OVER TO YOUR HOUSE AND USE YOUR INTERNET. PLEASE." I said this in a... slightly less frantic way, of course. So anyway, five minutes later I'm at his house, hopefully making my EXTREME GRATITUDE show as clearly as possible. And I managed to finish the last two tests in the course with relative ease. Tests are much more fun to take when you have someone there to make fun of the questions with you xD.

But OMG. Seriously. He freaking saved my life. ♥♥♥♥

And now, of course, the internet's back on -_-. Figures.

This isn't how it ends. This is how it begins.

2007-09-17T06:14:07Z

I just finished the seventh Harry Potter book for the second time.

I'm not sure how I feel.

I've grown up with these books. I have lived the most important years of my life reading them. And now it's over, and it feels a little empty.

Don't get me wrong, I think the books ended at the right time, in the right way. But I'll miss it, you know? I get extremely attached to fiction. Sometimes it seems more real to me than reality, and I cling to it, because I need that. It's a constant; it's something I rely on. Fiction - books, anime, etc. - is my drug of choice, and by God I am addicted. And don't tell me it's stupid, because it's not. I get attached to fiction because sometimes it feels like that's all that is real in my life. I cling to it because it keeps me alive. And, hopefully, relatively sane.

Where does Harry Potter factor in to all this? Simple. Harry Potter is the reason fiction has become so important to me. My life, like most peoples', is a series of ups and downs. Different people have different ways of dealing with their downs. For most, they seek comfort from other people. I've never done this. Why, I don't know. This hurts to admit, but I've always longed for that, longed to confide in and find comfort in other people, but I never have. I'm too scared. I'm not a brave person, and I never have been.

I was too afraid to seek comfort in other people, so Harry Potter become my solace. It helped me find my path through life when I was confused, and made me cry when I wouldn't let myself cry. I've gotten very attached to other works of fiction in my life, but none has ever been so important to me as Harry Potter.

For a long time, I've been depressed. It's only just lifted, and I think I finally know why. Lately, instead of turning towards my usual less productive methods of dealing with my emotions (which is what I've been doing for the past eight months), I find myself perusing one of the Harry Potter books that, for the last year or so, have been collecting dust on my bookshelf. Deathly Hallows has awakened in me the memories of times when I used to turn to books for comfort. I've found myself doing it again, and to my amazement, it still works just as well as ever. When Deathly Hallows came out and rekindled my love of Harry Potter, I finally found a way to remove myself from the destructive cycle my life had been follwing for the past eight months.

It's no secret in my mind that Harry Potter saved me. This may seem silly to you. I don't care; it's true. I can't deal with reality sometimes, so I remove myself to a different one, and in this one, I can let myself laugh and cry and feel and live. And maybe, after a while, I'll be able to do that in this reality, too. But until then, I'll turn to fiction. I'll turn to Harry Potter.

After all, as Dumbledore says at the end of seventh book, "Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?"

This Morning and English Comp

2007-09-13T15:40:34Z

Well, this morning basically consisted of the following.

Alarm rings. Press snooze button three times in a row. Wonder why I don't just turn the damn thing off. Sleepy-subconscious reminds me it's because I have class, and I need to get up or I'm going to be late. Tell sleepy-subconscious to shut the hell up. Go back to sleep. Finally get up at eight. Ricochet off the door frame on my way to the bathroom. Go downstairs. Mumble a sleepy "G'morning" to my mom. Grope for a coffee cup. Realize I added too much milk, and now it's cold. Drink it anyway, then add more coffee so it gets warmer. Finally become fully awake thanks to the coffee. I love you, coffee.

After that I was basically rushing around getting ready and panicking about being late, which I wasn't, but I could've been. >.> I could've.

Then I got to class, where we split into groups of three to do some peer-editing on the first draft of our essays. The two I got to edit were okay. One guy had a lot of run-on sentences, but he wrote his really late at night apparently, so that's somewhat understandable. His essay was also kind of flat, and he didn't elaborate much, but hey, it was a first draft. My first drafts are usually pretty good, but some people have to do a lot of editing before they reach something that can be called a finished product. The other girl didn't really have many problems, just a huge paragraph of doom that needed to be split up. I marked specific places she could do so, feeling very smart (I get such an ego-boost from this class xD).

I was a little nervous about my essay, because I started it at 11:40 last night and didn't finish until about 12:35, but both of the people who were editing it LOVED it and thought it was great (one guy even asked me if I'd taken a creative writing class, which I guess meant he was impressed. I told him no, I just write a lot, and he seemed really surprised).

So at this point I was feeling pretty good about it, but then the professor called me up to the front of the class (he'd been calling us up one by one while we were doing this) and I got kind of nervous again. I showed him my essay, and he read it and showed me a few things that could be better, then kind of sat and "hmm"-ed over it for a second before saying, "You know, the problem is that I can't find much to complain about."

Call me teacher's (professor's?) pet, but I was GLOWING when I went back to my seat, much as I tried not to let it show. Even on the things he suggested could be elaborated on more, he said I could keep them as they were and that would be fine. He seemed really impressed. I was completely ecstatic, since this was my first essay at the college level and I got such good feedback. Also, he kept me up there for about five minutes. Everyone else he kept for about ten minutes. This tells me my essay was quite possibly the best in the class.

...

;____; *sniff* I'm so proud of myself.

So anyway, I've got Japanese tonight, so I should probably go do the homework for that now. I might post an entry about it later, I don't know, depends on how I feel.

Gyah

2007-09-11T18:09:01Z

I HAVE THE WORST CRAMPS IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD.

Seriously. Blah.

Voice Post

2007-09-11T14:40:23Z

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2007-09-10T21:08:11Z

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2007-09-06T04:24:13Z

So. I managed to purloin a bag of caramels from the kitchen.

While cackling in fiendish glee at my triumph, I slammed the front of my foot into my bedpost.

*whimper* I think my toes are broken.

Blarg

2007-09-04T02:26:36Z

I think I'm coming down with something. I've felt kind of under the weather all day, but of course unless I can give my mom a specific symptom she won't believe me, so I pretended to have a headache. Which I did for part of the day, but it went away fairly quickly. But I still felt horrible even without the headache. So I was justified in lying. Really.

...

>.>

So anyway, I watched the Labor Day marathon of The Closer today, which I've decided is teh awesome even though the episode tonight ended on a cliffhanger nooooooooooo T_T. [/longrunonsentenceofdoom]

...In other news, I'm FINALLY reading Deathly Hallows for the second time. I'm kind of shocked that it took me this long. I started reading it again a while ago but never got past the fourth chapter... but by now some of the details have started to get blurry, so it'll be more fun to read it again.

So. Um. That's about all I have to say for now.

~~Noooooo I think I'm getting sick someone help me...~~

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2007-09-01T00:54:43Z

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ZOMG College #2

2007-08-31T02:09:36Z

(WARNING: here thar be cursing. You've been warned now. And you know what, this is my journal, so I'm not warning about cursing anymore. I will curse as much as I want. I will use the f-word *gasp*. I'm not thirteen anymore. Or fourteen. Or... nevermind. If you are, then I suggest you leave. Now.)

Nyaaaaah. College u.u~ I love you so.

Japanese class is OMG awesome and I love my sensei. She's very cool. And she has a really heavy Japanese accent, so she's most definitely a native speaker. Today in class she was writing something on the board and accidentally slipped into hiragana xD. It was kind of cool.

But, I mean, jeez, everyone was warning me that college is so hard OMG tons of homework blah-de-blah-de-blah, but I don't have very much homework at all ;___;. I'm kind of sad. Though I find it very ironic that they give us more homework on Tuesday, when we have only one day to do it before class on Thursday, and a very small amount of homework on Thursday when we have until next Tuesday to do it -_-. It's quite annoying.

Speaking of homework, I totally forgot to bring mine to Comp. this morning. I looked in my folder in the middle of class and my inner thought process was something like: "Wait. What? No. There is homework in here. There is. I will close it and open it again. *does so* *waits* Well fuck."

Also, this idiotic guy in my Japanese class is... idiotic. He had his cell phone out and was playing games on it practically the entire class, and when we had break to go down to the cafeteria (it's a long class), he came back TWENTY MINUTES late. AND when we were talking about last week's homework, he goes, "We had homework?" Um, DUH. The professor only, you know, talked about it for a full ten minutes at the end of class. And he also doesn't have any books. Not because he can't afford them, but because he's just too lazy to go get them. Um, HELLO, most of the homework is reading the book and doing stuff in the workbook. YOU. NEED. BOOKS. But noooooo.

...Honestly. It's so annoying to get paired up to practice with him. He can't even introduce himself, which we covered the FIRST. DAY. OF. CLASS. I mean, GOD. If you're going to be in college at least act like you're mature enough to pass second grade.

[/bitchrant] xD

Anyway, that's all I've got to babble about for now. See you later.

ZOMG College!

2007-08-23T16:04:23Z

I started college classes today, yay for me! I had Honors English Comp. this morning, and *gasp* THERE WERE SMART PEOPLE IN MY CLASS! And they were 18-19 and not 25! I don't think I've met very many smart people under the age of twenty-five before ;__;. It's kinda nice.

And I have homework! Yes, I know I'm a total freaking moron for being excited about having homework, but it's kind of hitting me that I'm technically a college student now and OMGwoah. It's scary and exciting and everything about college seems crazycomplicated and yet so FREE. I loves it.

Oh yeah, I got my student ID today and my picture DOESN'T SUCK! No, really. I actually got a picture on a photo ID that does not make me look like I'm stoned. It's a miracle.

Now if only I could finish up these stupid online classes so I can focus totally on college... I just wish they were done already and I didn't have to waste my time with them, but it's my fault for signing up for easy classes and then putting them off forever. T_T It may kill me, but I shall persevere.

Anyway... I've got Japanese in a few hours so I need to go work on some stuff, eat some lunch, etc. I'll post stuff about Japanese later.

Jeez, I can't wait until I graduate and go to a university. If community college is this good, I think I'm going to LOVE real college.

Yet Another Survey...

2007-08-19T22:03:34Z

*Three Things*
Three things that scare me:
1:	Spiders
2:	Failure
3:	Rejection
Three people who make me laugh:
1:	xxsuomynona
2:	leon_ares
3:	And Caitlin, who doesn't have an LJ.
Three Things I love:
1:	Rain
2:	Anime
3:	My family and friends
Three Things I hate:
1:	Intolerant People/Homophobes
2:	Restrictions
3:	The majority of people my age
Three things I don't understand:
1:	German
2:	How people can honestly think Communism is the way to go... sorry Alex...
3:	Why people care what other people think about them all the time to an unhealthy degree.
Three things on my desk:
1:	Messy Papers
2:	Grape-smelling body splash stuff I've had since I was 12/13... just now using it.
3:	A broken necklace
Three things I'm doing right now:
1:	Playing with the broken necklace on my desk.
2:	Avoiding doing the dishes.
3:	Missing a show I wanted to watch... darn, now it's probably over.
Three things I want to do before I die:
1:	Publish my novel.
2:	Learn to speak Japanese fluently.
3:	Get a whole lot older.
Three things I can do:
1:	Write and read hiragana.
2:	Lie very, very well.
3:	Understand people.
Three ways to describe my personality:
1:	Likes to laugh.
2:	Probably smarter than you ;P.
3:	Quiet and introverted.
Three things I can't do:
1:	Lie successfully to my mom... she always KNOWS -_-
2:	Read Harry Potter fanfiction. I don't even know why. It just makes my brain bleed.
3:	Pull off subtlety successfully. I am always either glaringly obvious or overly subtle so no one even notices.
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Another Survey

2007-08-19T21:46:41Z

*How Stereotypical You Are...*
The Generic Teenager Stereotype
Do you drink [alcohol]?:	Nope.
Do you party a lot? How often?:	I've never been to a party, unless birthday parties count xD.
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?:	Nope.
How often do you use the word like in an average hour?:	Maybe once or twice. My speech pattern isn't really dependent on it.
Do you skip classes? How often?:	Never.
Do you have casual sex? Protected?:	Ahahahaha.... no.
Do you steal?:	No.
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?:	No.
Do you drool over celebrities?:	I did when I was 13/14 or so, but not so much anymore.
Do you watch a lot of TV?:	I hardly ever watch TV, unless you count anime episodes I download onto my computer.
Do you ever watch the News?:	It's usually on around dinner time, so I do catch some of it, but I don't make it a point to watch it.
Do you even care about world issues?:	Yes, very much.
Do you read books often?:	I haven't been doing as much reading lately as I'd like, unfortunately. But I'm trying to fix that. I'm almost always reading SOMETHING.
Are you failing a lot of your classes?:	No, I'm not failing any classes.
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?:	No, I spend most of my time alone.
Do you smoke cigarettes?:	No, I can't, I've got asthma.
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?:	I've been to the mall... twice in the last year? And I only go in Seven Eleven for the occasionally slurpy or candy.
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?:	Not really.
Do you cuss a lot?:	Only in my head xD. Very occasionally out loud.
Are you desperate to fit in?:	I wouldn't say "desperate". I'd like to fit in with certain groups, sure, but I'm definitely not desperate.
Are you intelligent?:	I'd say so.
The Goth Stereotype
Black lipstick?:	No.
Black eyeliner?:	Sometimes, very sparingly.
Black eyeshadow?:	Only on Halloween.
Black trenchcoat?:	No.
Black boots?:	No.
Black fishnets?:	No.
Black nail polish?:	No.
Cigarettes?:	Like I said, asthma. Plus, I probably wouldn't smoke anyway.
Heavy metal music?:	No. I don't HATE it, but it's not really my thing.
Marilyn Manson?:	No.
Kittie?:	...What? I don't even know what/who that is.
Cradle of Filth?:	No.
Constant frown and perpetual angst?:	Constant frown, no, I laugh quite a lot. Perpetual angst, sometimes, yes xD.
Do you like to be seen as:	As... a goth? No.
Are you an intellectual?:	...Kind of?
An atheist?:	Agnostic.
Horrible home life?:	My home life is pretty good, actually. There are bumps in the road, but that's pretty normal.
Hopelessly depressed?:	I used to be, and I still can be sometimes.
Suffering with suicidal idealations?:	Used to, but not for a long time.
Self-mutilation?:	...
The Punk Stereotype
Plaid?:	No, but I don't dislike it.
Big black boots?:	No.
Mohawk?:	Ahahahaha. N.
Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]:	I don't any piercings. winces Not even my ears.
Loud, confident and opinionated?:	Loud, no, unless you count my music. Confident, sometimes and when I'm not I pretend to be. Opinionated, oooh yeah xD.
Wild hair colors?:	I've had passing thoughts of dying my hair purple or dark blue, but I don't think I'd ever actually do it.
NOFX?:	...what?
Rancid?:	...again, what?
Well versed on political scandals and outrages?:	Somewhat. Not nearly as much as some other people I know.
A:	Um, A to you too?
The Jock Sterotype
What's your IQ?:	I don't know. According to some test I had when I was little it's quite high, though. But I think they may have been wrong...
Do you watch a lot of sports?:	Not really, only baseball and sometimes figure skating.
Play a lot of sports?:	No.
Talk a lot about sports?:	Not really.
Do you do anything, really, but think about sports?:	YES. Sports do not take up very much of my life at all...
Are you arrogant?:	I can be.
Are you a male or female whore?:	Ahahahahahahaha. No.
Are you homophobic?:	Not at all. Homophobes kind of disgust me.
Do you tease other people a lot because you want to seem confident?:	No.
But really you're a quivering mass of insecurity?:	I've been known to be a quivering mass of insecurity before, but not always and I don't tease people.
Boobs = yes?:	...I am not understanding the question.
Parties = yes?:	No.
Dropping out of high school and flipping burgers = yes?:	NOOOOOOOOOOOO.
The Girl Stereotype
Do you spend a lot of time on your appearence?:	Not really, maybe 30 minutes at the start of each day.
Have you ever been on a diet?:	No. I do try to eat healthy, though (and kind of fail most of the time...)
How much did you lose?:	n/a
Was it not so much a diet as it was an eating disorder?:	n/a
Make yourself throw up?:	Ugh, no.
Make-up?:	Yes.
Low-cut tops?:	No.
How big are your boobies? [Cup size]:	...Do you really expect me to answer that?
Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?:	No. It'd be kinda hard, since 99% of the time it's in a ponytail. But I do play with my bangs sometimes...
Giggle a lot?:	I laugh a lot when I'm with my friends, but I don't know if I'd use the word "giggle".
What's the deal with boys?:	I tend to like them a lot more than girls, oddly enough... and um... some of them are pretty?
Thongs?:	...Those things scare me.
Pretty bras?:	No. Why does it matter?
YM, Teen, Cosmo, et al?:	Nope.
Who's the weaker sex?:	Well, guys have more potential to develop a greater muscle mass, so physically they tend to be stronger.
Are you a feminist?:	Not really. All people deserve the same rights, period, and that's all I really have to say about it.
Do you think Brad Pitt is hot?:	No.
How often do you shave your legs?:	About once a week... sometimes less in the winter when I never wear shorts.
How about your armpits?:	Usually once every three days or so.
Are you emotional?:	...Isn't everyone?
Especially when on your period?:	Hey, that is NOT my fault!
This Or That [Oh, that old coconut.]
Originality or Acceptance?:	Originality.
Independence or Companionship?:	Independence.
Stability or Freedom?:	Freedom.
Personal or Interpersonal?:	Personal.
Introvert or Extrovert?:	Introvert.
Popularity or Isolation?:	Isolation. Not a very social person...
Unique or Loved?:	...Can't I have both?
Understood or Individual?:	Individual. People don't have to understand me.
You or Them?:	Depends on who the "them" is.
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Blogthing

2007-08-19T21:20:48Z

You Are Not Prejudiced

Not only are you color blind, but you're also ethnicity blind, gender blind, and sexual orientation blind.
You don't judge someone until you truly know them. And even then, you're probably reluctant to judge.
You try to treat everyone equally. Everyone has a fair chance with you.
Good job - there's not a prejudiced bone in your body.

Are You Prejudiced?

I wins! xD

Random Survey...

2007-08-18T06:33:48Z

I... felt like taking a survey? Yeah, that works...

27 random questions

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?

Probably something along the lines of, "Remember, suicide is overrated... it is. Really."

2. How much cash do you have on you?

None at the moment.

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR?"

Floor.

4. Favorite planet?

...Saturn?

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?

If I had a cell phone I could answer this. I will have one in a week. Ask me again then.

6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?

I hate you. It's a new song.

7. What shirt are you wearing?

A grey-ish tank top. Fun.

8. Do you "label" yourself?

Do I look like a can of soup?

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?

Not wearing shoes.

10. Bright or Dark Room?

Depends on what I'm doing.

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?

They were so nonexistant it scared me...

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?

Watching the movie "Mean Girls". Because I was alone in the house at midnight and I COULD, damn it.

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?

I have no cell phone kthnxbai.

15. Where is your nearest 7-11?

Right outside the entrance to my neighborhood... I can literally walk to it in about five minutes.

16. What's a word that you say a lot?

I actually say "nonexistant" a lot... which I'm not sure is even a word.

17.Who told you he/she loved you last?

Probably my dad over the phone.

18. Last furry thing you touched?

My dog.

19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?

None.

20. How many rolls of film do you need developed?

I've gone digital. Yes, come to the dark side. We have better picture quality.

21. Favorite age you have been so far?

Hmm. Probably 12.

22. Your worst enemy?

Hmmm... This Kathryn girl in my theater group. *growl*

23. What is your current desktop picture?

Pink-tinted picture of Sakura (from Naruto) and the moon.

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?

Probably "Bye, Dad," to my dad on the phone.

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?

I honestly do not know. Um. Give me both xD.

6. Do you like someone?

No. But then again I would not say it if I did, so you probably can't trust me.

27. The last song you listened to?

Ummmm... *goes to check iPod*. Behind Closed Doors by Rise Against.

I'm Kind of Scared...

2007-08-17T05:10:48Z

I just had a horrible, horrible feeling. I really hope everyone is okay... I feel like I should go call people and check on them but it's too late...

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Sailing

2007-08-15T17:43:08Z

So, I went sailing with my friend Caitlin on Monday.

SINGLE MOST TERRIFYING EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE.

But uber-fun anyway. The boat kept doing this thing called "heeling" or something, where the boat tilts and one side is basically skimming the water, and it was SCARY! It tilted really far sometimes, and I'm sure I screamed at least once (why must sound travel over water so well?). And one time, when we were coming back to the marina, there was a big gust of wind and I swear we went VERTICAL. I thought I was going to DIE. There were a few times I was sure we were going to tip over, but that time was definitely the most frightening.

But oh well. I had fun anyway. Our boat was nineteen feet long, which is actually smaller than it sounds, but there was enough room for me, Caitlin, and her mom, so it was all good.

Pics!

The sails... it was kind of hard to get a good picture from where I was sitting.

The bow... I think. That's the front, right?

I had more but apparently they didn't turn out too well... I'll try to get Caitlin to send them to me later and see if I can photoshop them into something decent. But, anyway, sailing was fun, and I'm hoping I'll get to go again sometime.

[EDIT] More pics!

Random picture of... some red thing out in the water. *headdesk* I don't remember what it's called.

And another one, with part of the sail included in the picture... hooray.

Something across the river that was under construction, I guess. There was a dust-tornado-thing over there at one point while we were sailing, but I couldn't really see it because we were too far away T_T.

Random guy we saw windsurfing.

Aaaand... that's it.

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2007-08-14T20:44:08Z

So. Journal got a makeover.

Yay.

I went sailing yesterday.

It nearly resulted in my untimely death.

I have to go eat food before I die of hunger now.

I'll post stuff about sailing later.

Bye.

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The Gatekeeper...

gem_samari @ 2007-12-04T13:53:00

SCHOOL IS EATING ME ALIVE

Just FYI

*is tired*

Life...

ZOMG. It's the attack of the killer tomatoes.

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This isn't how it ends. This is how it begins.

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